Sorry my friend it is not the compound in sorry to say . Love you bobby and with that ill hold back no punches..its not the compounds that made ME lash out , it was and will always be built up emotions ,issues , maybe self esteem issues ( I'm speaking about myself ) if it applies apply it ,if not let it fly ..
I was a angry,self pitty mess my friend , and when something reminded me of it...i would lash out at whatever whoever and so on.
NOTHING I HAD TO BE PROUD OF ..i ran I blamed everyone was a asshole , fuck them. NO BOBBIE I WAS THE ASSHOLE ..i was the one hiding behind anger.. And blaming and judging and so on and so on ...SEE THAT WAS MY SHIT ,I WAS EVERYTHING I THOUGHT OF OTHERS ...
Today I'd like to think after a long time alot of soul searching , a real lot of looking in the mirror and hating and I mean HATING WHAT I SEEN ..
I can look in the mirror with a littlehumility and a little love of what I see today .
)). Just like everyone says that fucking booze them drugs them aas the ANGER !!!!!(ANGER)
. THEY ARE WHY IM A ASSHOLE
Not true Bobbie they were my solution, meaning the drugs the aas theangeer they were not the problem .THey were my solution I hid and blamed them and used them. ....the TRUTH IS THE PROBLEM WAS ME , ALL THAT OTHER SHIT WAS MY SOLUTION
))))yes I was the problem ...so I got real and addressed the problem ME..... And you know what Bobbie I'm not that bad justlikeall of us were all good people ... And until we addresses excuse me I don't like using us or we , I don't have that right ... UNTIL I ADDRESSED ME ... I was stuck , and when I got real and I mean god dam mother fucking real and nasty and faced the truth and admitted the truth that all thisshit wasn't drugs booze aas anger YES ANGER IS A DRUG TRUST ME I SURVIVED 20 PLUS YEARS IN PRISON HIGH ON ANGER there were no tears bitches cry, there was no sympty, that was for the weak and so on ...
The Truth I couldn't have been more wrong Bobbie...i was the weak I was the bitch the pussy...and hated ppl. Know why because what gives them the right to be happy??? there weak. Lmao. ... I was jellous, there was so much I hated about me that I hurt others because they had whati lacked ...and that was being a man .. A man smiles a man crys a man feels a man don't lash out at others.. A man looks in the mirror and can cry and can ask for help..and a man loves others ...(If I have lashed out at anyone here and I know I have long time ago .. I SENCERELY APPOLAGIZE,AND HUMBILY ASK YOU FORGIVE) see Bobbie before I'd get angry blame tren or a compound or a drug or anything. ... Other than myself . Today the anger is gone I don't blame I take responds ilty. For my actions and I don't hide behind excuses...I MAN UP...and address my shit.
Sorry b , and sorry for the story guys but I needed to get that off my chest ( PART OF MY HEALING , PART OF THE APOLOGIES I FEEL I OWE .PART OF ME BEING A TRUEMAN AGION...AND TO HUMBLY IN FRONT OF THE COMMUNITY I CAN SMILE AND SAY THIS IM PROUD IM GROWING AGION ...
BOB IF IT APPLYS APPLY IT IF NOT LET OT FLY AND AT THE LEAST I THANKYOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO GET THISOFF MY CHEAST...
I couldn't face alot of you all I called brother today I can... I'm human I make mistakes but where I'm at FINIALLY IS GROWING ...
Yes my friends 90% of our shit our anger our look at this asshole he' does this and that. What a asshole. .....smh. Wrong its not that person. IT WAS ME