Slippery slope

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Littleyokes

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welp guys and gals, im just kinda reaching out for an ass chewing from hell. I feel like I'm hitting a slippery slope. Started fucking up with old addictions. Specifically cocaine. Started fuckin up and feel like it's gonna be hard forget about it. Im sure a lot of you will be thinking why the fuck is yokes Sharing this. Well I know you guys will say it how it is and people who know me personally won't say shit cause they know id probably end up knocking em. As much as I'd like to say I wouldn't, I probably would. Mainly looking for a reach out and ass chewing. I feel like an idiot postin this but I gotta hear it somewhere. 

 
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SemperFi

Well-known member

Yokes,

No judgement brother.

I just PM'ed a good friend this statement and I will pose it to you as a question and I trust you will answer it honestly.

Do you want us to feed your self esteem or do you want us to tell you the truth? We can't do both.

SEMPER FI

 
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Littleyokes

New member

Definitely the truth. And I know I'm fuckin up. It's killin my food intake And gains. It's just really hard to stop once I start. Basically lookin for a slap in the face and someone to tell me I'm  fuckin up. Like I said no one I know will

 
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strong

Member

Yokes, I cant judge.... I will say its a disappointment. You know where this is going to take you... Not only are you hurting yourself but you end up hurting your brothers and sisters here... Will it really help you if I tell you you're fucking up and you're being stupid? Nope.... As soon as you are geeking then its time for the next blast....  The problem with being an addict is its only a choice to use or not. Once you start, the choice is gone... The addictive personality takes over...  I love your humor and you have made some great gains.. Its up to you and only you.. You damn sure know what I mean.... God Bless...

 
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JARHEAD2

Member

Yokes my dear friend, 

First of all, I truly care. That's not a statement its a fact. You know I counsel many people & I can because I've been there!!

pm me brother if you really want to talk. You're in my sincerest prayers!!

JAR

 
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siegmund

Moderator

Hold on hear !!!!!.

Yokes wants to hear the truth !! And there is no sugar coat from me ..

Been there done that , did 20 years , did 3 6month tc programs (behavior modification ) fuck drug programs drugs were not the problem they were the solution , the problem was me , YES ME YOKES NOT YOU ME .. i wasnt done till i was done ...and wasnt a thing a mother fucker could say or do it was my choice !!!!

When i had enough pain !!! I started to look at myself and i quit feeling sorry for myself , i quit playing the fucking victium...

You know whats worse i took my wife , or my girl or my kids mother fucking hostage ....yes because i wanted my cake and eat the mother fucker.

Hey brother theres nothing wrong with not being done , but make sure you aint taking noone hostage ..

I use to feel guilty after i just spent the rent the bill money and everything else ...then i wanted someone tell me grind me 

No i wont grind you ,period .now there is consenquences for every choice , and all mine were negative , i didnt know there was positive consenquences , all my consenquences are positive today ...

Know why , i dont feel entitled.!!! i dont feel soory for myself !!! Im not the fucking victium.  ...

No !!!! I live life on life am i a angel fuck no , im one of the lucky ones ..i recongize 

You have not had enough pain yet my friend , and thats that...

Now like i said i ran the toughest behavior modification programs in state prison ,

So i fucking know , i lived the lie for 20 + year.  

You want to get real ???? You want to talk about the real deal ????? Pm me ....but you wont get no pitty from me.

I love you bro , but this way i rolll ...im real.  So when your real and you put the tissues down pm me im here sieg 

 
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blastthru23

Moderator

Dude, just put it away, and get back to work. Been there, done that. You know the right thing to do, man. Fuck the dumb shit. So what, you lost your footing for a second, you're fully aware of it, now just get back up on the trail and get packin. You got a destination to make. Here, let me give you a hand up,  there ya go buddy. We'll still make it by sundown with a little time to spare. Heave ho! Let us depart hither!

 
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milkin

Moderator

Stay strong friend and accept support from others, for they are the ones who will support and and help you through. You are far stronger than any addiction, remember addictions are in the mind and the mind can be trained to do whatever you want it to do. 

 
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Littleyokes

New member

Just wanna say thank you guys! Means a lot. I'm sure some are thinking what a fuckin puss. But is what it is. i felt I needed to reach out for some straight up truth or insight  from others. Just gotta man the fuck up and kick that shit back to where it was. Outta my life. i personally want to say love you all and your the best. Thanks everyone!  

 
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siegmund

Moderator

Absolutly noy yokes !!!!

But i may sound hard but im hard and what im telling you is how i needed to hear it HARD REAL RAW ...

I NEEEDED TO HAVE SOMEONE JUST LIKE ME TELL ME ...AND KEEP IT REAL , im sorry all this , ahhhh or ooooh , please.no thats not me ...that only made me sicker ....

You know i care , if i didnt id say nothing 

 
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Dont_trip

Guest

the simplest ideas is to eliminate everyone from your past that has ties to that its a simple idea that works but it is very dificult it will be lonely it will be boring but trust me the other side is the only side I would ever choose.i was a slammer bro some of these guys will no what I'm talking about there is nothing funny about the needle I've been to hell dude and if that's what it takes to get out then do it.hanging around with dirtbags that part like that makes you a dirtbag. Someone once told me show me who you roll with I will show you who you are.....seems like a lot of people here have respect for you so show them who you are.ive got 6 years clean and trust me when I say I'm free no desire and nobody I knew back then is involved in my life now.guess where the ones who kept hanging out with each other are? Doing the same shit wondering why life sucks.sorry for typos this thing is a beeeeotch to rewrite 

 
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Frankie-knuckels

Guest

I don't think I could add much to what's been said but I'll let you know I won't judge you because I've been there and I danced with the devil for many years and it wasn't fun till this day I am paying for my actions that said brother you just need to beat that shit back brother and don't quit trying until you have won...!!!!! You gotta take your head out the game and come back to reality...!!

 
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TKC432

New member

Everyone here is hitting the nail on the head with this one.  Can't really add much other than Been there Done that.  It is a slippery slope ... once ya start that shit again your drug craving mind will do everything it can to justify just one more bump.  Gotta slap that shit in the face and man up and take the control back.  Easier said than done .... I know.  Trust me I know.  Spent way too many years of my life under the control of one illegal substance or another and worked out some of the best justification stories in the game.  Got so bad I was telling myself that I needed it to be successful at my job .... total bullshit but I believed it.  It took falling way way down for me to wise up.  Got myself in a place where having drugs would only add another 6 months  .... and ain't never going back.  I can't say that I haven't been tempted many times over the past few years .... and its been insanely hard no to give in.  Each time I am faced with the ugly opportunity I ask myself is what I'm about to do going to help me reach my goals or is it gonna stop me from reaching my goals .... fight back that drug induced justification mindset and keep that control you work so hard to get.  I feel you Brother.  Took balls to post this up for us all to see.  Stay strong ... listen to all the wise ones here on MG.  

 
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Burrr

Guest

Kinda funny, but just reading this post had me craving a few bumps. Fortunately I have no idea where to find that stuff anymore.

 
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