Than the third year since I was still in school I could eat only whatever we had in the fridge back home and that wasn't enough to make those precious gainz, so I started working on weekends so I could afford more meat in my diet, and start experimenting with supplements. I've read for nights on end about those supplements, cos they were just making there first appearance in my country, we had only one dealer that was importing Australian supplements called Musashi. I've known most of the descriptions of them supplement by heart, I really thought that they were holding the key to success in bodybuilding, gullible as it sounds now, back than we didn't have so much info. I wasted every cent I made mostly on supps, the advertisers made me believe that they were more important than food. Anyways u'd probably guessed the results. Creatine helped me a bit, I liked the effect of water retention, everything else was closer to placebo, I took HMB, BCAA, Glutamine and of-course whey protein, which probably helped a bit and I truly believed they helped, and I was a hard believer in the slow progress, I was going for the long run! -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405982138-720445-jpg
Few years after the internet was more wide spread, I start placing the pieces together of the 90% missing info that i didn't know, the "dark side" of the bodybuilding. I was still a youngster and though I heard of roids I was damn scared of them, I had a gyno without even taking any it was some sort of teenage gyno that some boys get in there teen years. I had a surgery and came back to the gym even more motivated without them bitch tits I knew roids can give u that but even after I had it removed and couldn't possibly get that **** again I was still afraid to start. I read bout it as much as I read bout supps before that, and started gaining confidence for my future first cycle. That happened after I finished high school at the age of 19, back than u can still buy pharmacy grade roids over the counter, u could do it now to but they are greatly over priced and have only 2 kinds. I bought retabolil and omnadren, which u might know as deca( with the difference that it's less of it) and slow acting testosterone. And as I was use to eating all kinds of crap almost without gaining fat, I did the same thing during my first cycle, I even ate more junk. The results were of-course I gained bout 15-20kgs of mostly water and fat, though in retrospect, I've gained quite a lot of muscle too , for those low dosages I took, probably now I can't even feel. Anywayz I invested my whole budget as always, and took roids 2-3 times a year, unfortunately I was addicted to the scale, and continued on my binge eating till I became 125kg... -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405982516-198080-jpgOnly then I realized I was fat as **** and started my first cutting cycle ever. I started it without roids just using some efedra, a mistake again, than I jumped on the gear again, and was quite happy with the results I dropped till 93kg, that's like 32kgs down ( back then it was still considered normal to gain that much with dirty bulking and cutting half of your weight after this, which now I believe most of the guys in the know, know it's complete bull and it only stresses your body ). I was in the best shape of my life -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405982573-166002-jpg
And as so often happens in this world a year later the s*it hit the fan - I ended up in prison for a year in another country, prior to that I was dirty bulking again to 125, I came out flat and looking like **** at 73kgs, the food was **** inside and the only stuff u could buy was raw peanuts. That didn't prevent me from training with whatever means I had inside, but without proper recovery u know it had only catabolic effects on me. I was out for 5-6mnths before I got in trouble again but this time I was in a European prison, where I've gained though without gear a significant amount of weight, I did 2 years there and came out 107 fat as ****  -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405982746-226126-jpg
That was just bout 2-3yrs ago, the last month of the year 2012. My years from 21-25 I spent inside with a small break in between. My spirit was as high as ever and since I had some money I could afford good dieting and gear, then I made another great mistake, to cut down fast I jumped on 0carbs and 0 fat for 4mnths, I became 89kg flat -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405982860-752207-jpg, still dense but with hernial tears from the bad dieting, that is the only food I ate for almost 1/2year was steamed chicken breasts and water, and I mean from the very first to the very last meal that was all I had, the gear I was using was pharma grade Primabolan and some Chinese growth hygetropin which I think was the only thing that kept me alive in this brutal diet. Anyways the results were ****ing grate esp. when I started loading on carbs and put in a few more compound in the system. I was shredded to the bone at 97kgs 10x to my research and the fact that I friend the very ppl that were importing and supplying most of the gear in here, and everything they had was lab tested or pharma grade products and learned the most precious piece of advice, that is - know your gear, thats the key to legit results -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405983337-162038-jpg ...anywayz the surgery I had took everything away there were some complications so I was fed through my vein with glucose and no food for almost 2 weeks, and u know what that means. I lost bout 20kilos of pure muscle -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405983495-023244-jpg
A year has passed since th?n and I'll try include pictures to cover my story from the very begining, but I can confidently say that not only I've recovered but I'm now in the best shape of my life -imageuploadedbytapatalk1405983711-130226-jpg
And this is just the begining... I came here to learn and help out. Im confident that with the drastic changes I was able to achieve I can bring something to the table. Anywho,I don't know if someone will read my story but Im glad I wrote it.