Tough time...

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JdDaniel01

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Back on the grind on Monday. I hit my gym bitches up and they are all about me coming back. Bought me a new pair of Jordan's for motivation. May start on leg day. You better believe I'm going to punish myself a little bit. Pound that iron back into the consciousness. it always comes back around. Besides, summer is just about over, I'm damn sure not gonna miss a good bulk. gonna keep cruising a little bit and then start on an old school deca/test/dbol bulker. Gonna split the deca for a kicker and then a little later as I hit that plateau. Same old shit. Thanks fellas. The wife just cant talk from an anabolic standpoint, I knew I had to reach out to you guys (and gals). 

 
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JdDaniel01

New member

The cartels are a motherfucker down here. But that's another thing alltogether. I don't want to talk about drugs in an open forum anyway. My bad...

 
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ramdisck

Member

Life throws us some shit at times. I know you got this.  I've not been in here a while.  This summer I asked my wife for a Divorce.  We've been battling over that for some time. sharing my house sharing kids.  We are finally getting close to having everything down and filed. she's packing and moving out.  

Then Tuesday I take my 12 yo to his biannual heart checkup for a Bicuspid Aortic Valve. Dr said his heart disease is so extreme he can't do a single contact sport.  Tough for us both since he's an active athlete and spent the last 8 year training wrestling.  he's a national place winner.  I have coached him every year.    Now we are meeting with surgeons to see if he should get a new valve.  mixes great with a divorce.

On top of all that. I am happy, look forward to the future and keep moving.

WE GOT THIS JD!

 
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SemperFi

Well-known member

Me and mine will be praying for your entire family ram. I know how important wrestling is to your son.

 

SEMPER FI

 
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jewsir

New member

JD, you have been on a rollercoster for some time now. Your highs are the highest your lows are well... scary to us watching from the outside. Scary in that I can see this cycle leading to your permanent demise, and brother I, like many here, do not want that. I cut my wrists and ate 50 somas once. I woke up in the hospital with tubes and hoses every where, and after a good ass chewing the doc said " You are a miracle of your own stupidity, you lost enough blood that the somas couldn't shut your system down, and the somas slowed down your heart rate, and lowered your blood pressure enough to keep you from bleeding to death"... Either alone would have killed me! I tell you this because at that mpment I realized I was here for a reason not of my own accord. YOU TOO ARE HERE FOR A REASON. STAY STRONG. WE ARE WITH YOU

 
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AnabolicServices

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Majority of us arent man enough to call yourself out like that, you are honest with yourself and holding you accountable. 

Its all about taking action and the gym/bodybuilding is the one place you can go that starts the building blocks to a new foundation. Mental health is something im highly interested in after I myself developed a gambling problem pissing away 110k in 4 months, refinanced vehicles that were paid off, sold my boat, lost a good woman and nearly lost my home. 

How did I get better, I owned it, went to city gaming board banned myself from casinos, next morning 5am went to gym and it all fell back into place after that. I own a small IT firm and am now bootstrapping a self funded app for mental health and support.

you did the first thing right by owning it now start laying the foundation to be the man you want to be. 

 

JdDaniel01 said:
</p><p>So here we go...</p><p>As some of you know, I just came off a hardcore Tren/Test cycle. I have had a "perfect storm" of circumstances lately. I'm not going to start spitting cop outs. At about the same time that I was moving onto a cruise, my doc upped my mental health meds. I've been fucking zombied out lately. I haven't been to the gym in approaching two months. Been fucking getting my stimuli through the same ol destructive means. Been partying my ass off. Been drunk and coked out for the majority of the time. I know it's all my fault and I have no one to blame but myself. I guess I'm just looking for advice or personal experience with said problems. I've since cut off my bad habits. Clean as a whistle. Getting back at it tomorrow. I don't know if this post is more a lesson of mental health combined with steroids, or a lesson in personal shortcomings, but I figured it would at least start a conversation.... feel free to chew my ass full throttle. Peace brothers and sisters...</p><p>
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strong

Member

It is AWESOME Jar. I read that post and just felt better. I love to see natural born maniacs : )  change their ways and hold themselves accountable. 

 
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JARHEAD2

Member

Yeah it takes a real man or woman to step & hold themselves accountable & change, & it takes an even bigger one to pull themselves up & turn around to help others do the same!

 
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Dolf

Moderator

+3

The hardest thing to do is admit our own faults. JD is a good man because he's done that! Now it's time to work on them.

 
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JdDaniel01

New member

I may still be relatively young, but I have been through the meat grinder long enough to know that:

1. I'm only human

2. I fuck up from time to time

3. Theres a lesson to be learned from everything

Realistically speaking, I know that nothing other than the Reaper can stop any of us in this lifetime. I couldnt give two shits about what anyone thinks about me, so if I can put my business out there and possibly help someone (even one person) then I will consider it a win. Mental health doesn't get talked about, and it leaves such a grey area out there. It's not just a veteran thing (even though there are vets dying every day from it). As my man Strong said above, some of us are just naturaly born maniacs. I have white knuckled life and made it a hell of a lot more complicated than it needed to be at times, but I have learned a hell of a lot from it. Anyway, I'm starting to ramble, so I will cut myself off. As I said, originally  just wanted to run things up the flagpole and open the discussion, I didn't even expect it to get the response it did. Thanks for the kind words and i hope the discussion has been helpful.

 
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