I just realized ut was a couple of u that i had hard time with a year ago when i first started runnin gear - u guys were pretty hard on me like i disnt have any business here and i am pretty sensitive so i remembered it but its water let bygones b n all that.
I really coulda ised ur expertise back then i almost shut down my liver and kidneys when i ran 5 different same testosterones and 2 or 3 different eaters of tren!
I disnt know any better so u guys should b more willing to helo someone along regardless of your personal feelings and thats a primw example y.
Bro... don't take this the wrong way... but if we all told you that you didn't have any business running gear... and then almost shut your kidneys down and shot so much gear your dick doesn't work... it sounds like we we're right.... right?
I've been here for like 18 months... so odds are I was here... and we're usually pretty good about being respectful and not bullying. So if we bullied you... I'm truly sorry. (Probably Aussie had a lot to do with that... haha.. I miss him)
But at the end of the day I don't give a flying fuck about your feelings brother... I care about your health!!!!!!
From the sound of it you came looking to run a crazy cycle... we said no... just run 300mg of test for 12-16 weeks.
Then we probably asked for your prior experience with gear, if you had bloods, basic knowledge of dosing and all that and you probably seemed very inexperienced.
We probably told you that you weren't ready. And to get bloods done and focus on diet and training.
Then one of our members... our previous member from down under went a little crazy on you.
Hence why he's not with us anymore.
And you just decided not to listen to us and decided to run 1000mg a week for a year straight... fucked yourself up and now you're back for help.
Am I close?
Brother... please don't delete your account... stay... enjoy the brotherhood here.
Keep us posted, learn from the guys with more experience and knowledge.
You don't have to be a crazy active member... but keeping the same name will help us remember you when you come back for help again.
I'm truly sorry we pushed you away... I'm truly sorry you didn't heed our warnings. What happened to you is EXACTLY what I don't want to happen, and why I fight so hard to keep this place respectful and not full of hate... like so many other forums with such terrible information.
But honestly... I don't think gear is right for you... not yet. I mean you're already on it and now you need it... but you went from one needle to another without ever learning how to control your addiction.
And trust me there's no judgement here... I was a fucking junkie... I shouldn't be alive... much less judging others.
But like H, gear can be just as addictive. But it's going to destroy your life in other ways.
More gear doesn't mean more muscle... it just means more problems.
Hence why you're having so many at the moment.
Right now even at 300mg a week for a trt dose is wayyyyy to much!!!
Fucking Larry Wheels doesn't cruise on 300mg a week and he's twice your size.
That's still your addict brain telling you that you need more. When you don't. You need more food, not more gear.
Your running dbol, then talking about how to much food is bad for your kidneys... WHAT?
I'm sorry brother but that doesn't make any sense!
Food is 100000% better than dbol.
You will put on more lean mass with $100 worth of chicken and rice than $100 worth of dbol.
Fact... period.. end of conversation. 300g of protein isn't even a crazy amount.
I'm really not trying to attack you man... but your priorities are fucked. Taking 300mg of test per week and dbol... and talking about not eating to much because it's bad for you... I mean... bro... just... no!
It's the exact opposite. Your diet should be your number 1 priority. Then your lifting program and your goals with gear should be to take as little as possible to keep growing and sides to a minimum.
So far my biggest blast was 600 test, 400 tren and 400 mast. I put 11lbs (of lean muscle) on in 15 weeks.
Do you think that if I did
1,200 test, 800 tren and 800 mast I would have put 22lbs on?
No!!! Absolutely not!
Honestly I could have taken 300 test 100 tren and 100 mast and put 20lbs on if I ate more of the right foods.
I didn't because I'm a ex fuckin junkie who thinks more is more... and even though I still look good I really struggle with my diet. If I had the money and discipline to eat how I really wanted... boy... I would... id already be at 215. But... food is expensive and I really struggle to eat more than 3,500 cals. I'll literally throw up in my sleep.
Ok... this rant is long enough... but I'll end it with
I'm sorry for your last experience with us. Please don't leave... stay... enjoy the forum... make it your second home like so many of us have. So many of us are ex addicts and still struggle with dosage amounts and struggle with fuckin life in general... it's why we're fucking here brother!