I'm motivated entirely by vanity, envy and lust.
And a bit of body dismorphia.
Fuck yes!!! My vanity is my biggest drive!!
I fucking love the dirty looks I get in public.. I fucking love when I see a couple and the girl gives me a smile and the bf gives me a dirty look... that shit just feeds my already giant ego!
I mean fuck... Friday it was 42° outside... I was walking around in a deep cut tank.
And while my diet is very good... I still eat a lot of shit I shouldn't. I eat chocolate frosting from the tub, 2 times a week I'll eat a pint of 1,200cal Ben and Jerry's ice cream. Probably go through a bag of Doritos every week... and of course my nightly half gallon of chocolate milk.
When you train hard and eat right... and take enough gear (

) you can afford to eat like shit every once in a while.
Of course I could probably look a little better without the ice cream and Doritos... but I'm not competing... I'm not getting paid for this.
I'm just trying to enjoy life... I enjoy working out... I enjoy walking around without a shirt on... and I enjoy ice cream... I workout out enough so I can still enjoy the other 2.
Plus eating 5 times a day plus snacks keeps my metabolism high enough to where I can still eat like a teenager.
If anything my metabolism is too fast... I had a upper respiratory infection.
For 5 days I was quite sick. And for 3 of them I didn't lift or eat like I should. The other 2 I ate pretty decent but my workouts were half ass at best.
I went from 192lb down to 187.5lb.
That's kinda fuckin annoying!!! Especially when every pound I gain is a fuckin struggle.
I went 5lbs away from my 197lb goal by 12-28 to fuckin 10lbs away...
Really fucks with you mentally