I saw a guy yesterday and was like shit he's pretty big. I was taller, wider and about twice as defined.
Yay dysmorphia.
Brother... I know!!!
That happens to me almost weekly. We'll be out and I'll say something about a jacket dude. My girl will turn and say... "You're much bigger than him" or something like that. I just don't see it... all the time. Even though everyone treats me differently in public. I just don't see it in myself.
Maybe 1 day a week I'll feel like the baddest mother fucker on the planet. But the other 6 I'll feel like that weak pathetic 137lb guy I was 3 years ago.
It's funny because my entire lifestyle has changed in the past 2 years... well really the last year. I watch nothing but bodybuilding and powerlifting shit on YouTube. When we go out in public I spend more time pointing out jacked dudes instead of pretty girls (even though we both like pretty girls

) more and more of the people I spend my free time talking to are big dudes. I've grown a pretty close relationship outside of the forum with you and
@JesseTX plus a few other guys from FB. This lifestyle has completely changed almost every part of my life.
2 nights ago we were laying in bed and my girl said, "I have a feeling that pretty soon my house is going to be filled with a bunch of big ass dudes"
I had to make the joke "does that thought get you wet" then she gave me a dirty look...

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But I think she has a point. I don't talk to a lot of my old friends anymore. Lifting has completely taken over so much... if the person doesn't lift... I don't know what to talk about

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